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Was afraid I had done wrong this evening in omitting an apprehended duty, giving way to creaturely reasoning and fear.

24. My mind sweet and peaceful under some disquieting circumstances.

NINTH MONTH, 1795.

I. These several days pretty fully take up with my beloved father, who had another alarming seizure: under which trial I have felt, as here-tofore, divine support near to sustain.

2. An unexpected sweet little opportunity tóday in my dear father's chamber: in which George Dillwyn had to express his belief that the hope my father entertained of his future wellbeing would never be permitted to perish. In a sweet and encouraging manner he enlarged a little on the duty and advantage of full resignation to the divine will. He had a public meeting this morning, which was to my apprehension a favoured season. I spent the rest of the day in: sweet society.

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4. Our monthly meeting. In the silent part of the meeting for worship, my spirit sweetly tendered under the consideration of the many vours vouchsafed. George Dillwyn appeared acceptably in testimony. Went in the evening to Wanborough with some friends, where I spent the day with them, I trust, in innocent cheerfulness...

6. Went this morning to Arundel with Morris Birkbeck, jun. and the aforesaid friends, where we met with many friends assembled, and think it was a season of renewed favour. George Dillwyn appeared in testimony and supplication. After meeting parted with my friends, and returned home in the evening.

8. A fatiguing day, yet found a little leisure in the evening to retire to the fountain of sure mercies, where my spirit was sweetly contrited, and refreshed under the fresh feeling of the extension of divine regard.

13. A precious little season in my dear father's chamber, while the family were at meeting this morning.

16. These last few days spent well as to action, except some little impatience; but have too much given way to unprofitable thoughts, so that at times I have deeply mourned my instability; yet have again relapsed into the same dispo sition. Again I have sought after that Word which maketh clean, and though so unworthy, have felt it to purify my vessel. I make this remark by no means boastingly, but to show the loving kindness of the Lord, who willeth our sanctification.

24. Rather a bustling day. Retired in the evening to Wisdom's gate, where I sat in much poverty and weakness, and was afresh convinced. that nothing short of the key of David could give access to the fountain of life.

27. The enemy, ever busy to betray, drew me off my watch to-day at meeting; so that 'I sustained loss, which I lamented.

TENTH MONTH, 1795.

I. The recollection of some weaknesses accompanied my mind in looking over yesterday · and to-day; but at times I have felt the secret touches of my heavenly Father's love in which I had to rejoice.

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Was favoured to sit under the Lord's teaching this morning in our little silent week-day meeting; for which blessing I desire to improve. The rest of the day fatiguing, and attended with a painful circumstance to my mind, to see youth trained up in the way they should not go; and too wise in. their own eyes, to receive instruction from those who have had more experience..

4. Went to Esher to our quarterly meeting, but was too ill to attend either of the sittings.

9. Much better. A little renewal of strength this morning in my sitting in my father's chamber. 14. Had fresh occasion to lament my proneness to evil, and to see the subtilty of self-love, how it creeps into the most trifling actions of our lives.

16. A sweet contriting and instructive season in our little silent week-day meeting. Gave way to impatience in the night with my dear father,

which cost me some tears, and I earnestly besought an increase of strength proportioned to the trial of the day.

20. Renewedly desirous of rising above the weakness of nature, and that I may know every thought and desire brought into subjection, and under the government of the Prince of Peace.

23. Gave way to anger on a trifling occasion, for which I feel condemnation; nor has the rest of the day been so much improved as it might have been.

25. Rather low times both morning and afternoon meetings. Mary Stacey had a strengthening opportunity, to my mind at least, in our family in the evening.

29. My time has been so much taken up this week with company, attending on my dear father, &c. as to afford but little opportunity for religious improvement; yet think I have been enabled to step along with a good degree of circumspection.

30. This morning's meeting a season to be remembered, for the fresh descending of heavenly dew; under which precious influence my soul was secretly and unexpectedly drawn forth to petition the Lord on my beloved father's account, that he might be his in the day that he made up his jewels; and the sweetness which accompanied my mind gave me reason to hope my prayer would be answered. It is with a heart replete with gratitude that I thus commemorate the gracious dealings of the Lord.

ELEVENTH MONTH, 1795.

6. My beloved father again seized with epi lepsy.

8. My strength and confidence a little renewed this morning at meeting, which I esteem an inesti-mable favour. My dear father gradually recovering.

12. Have had but little opportunity for reli-gious retirement these few days past; and when I have found and embraced it, I have thought my mind much resembled nature as to the outward, a winter season. I could find but little verdure, or pleasant fruit; yet at other times have felt the restricting power of truth near, which has drawn my mind into peaceful quiet; which I esteem a favour.

15. A roving lukewarm disposition too much prevailed in the early part of the meeting; but the good Shepherd graciously condescended to stretch forth the crook of his love, and gently draw me towards him. He was in abundant mercy pleased to animate my faith, by afresh disclosing the beauty and excellent order of the new creation; s with what perfect harmony every duty might be fulfilled, did we dwell enough under the pure principle of truth; no clashing, no interfering one with another, but each performed in its allotted season. Then indeed should we know Jerusalem « to be a quiet habitation and a safe hiding-place.