I feel humbly thankful that I am still preserved

alive.

FIRST MONTH, 1799.

3. This has been a week of some trial of faith; yet think I have been enabled to bear the cross with some degree of faithfulness.

II.

After a time of conflict to-day at meeting I was enabled to rise above a wrong disposition, and approach Him who is the health of my countenance; before whom my soul bowed in deep prostration and deep abasement of self.

16. My mind has been too much outward for several days past, O, for a closer walk with God. 19. Hastened to Wanborough, dear --being thought near his end. I found an afflicted house; yet was favoured to feel my mind preserved in much tranquillity.

28. What a severe scene has again taken place! We had flattered ourselves the bitterness of death was passed, when dear was again

plunged as it were to the very gates of it. The doctors give no hopes: one of the poor lads dead. How awful are the approaches of such a messenger!

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again reviving; and hope once more cheers this dwelling; though we are almost afraid to entertain so welcome a guest.

SECOND MONTH, 1799.

15. Came to Godalming. Attended our weekday meeting, which proved a refreshing season to my poor mind, which I thought myself unworthy of. It was pleasant to sit again with my friends after such an absence: indeed it was a season of mutual rejoicing. I was thankful to see them again in health, and they expressed much gladness at seeing me preserved from the contagion, to which I have been exposed. I felt my own unworthiness of such marks of tender regard.

I.

THIRD MONTH, 1799.

continues mending. I went to ●ur monthly meeting, where I sat under an humbling sense of my weakness, and inability for every good word and work, both in the meeting for worship and discipline; yet felt a degree of hea venly sweetness accompany this frame of mind; which led me to hope it was not altogether unacceptable to the Father of mercies.

3. Left my dear friends at Wanborough.. Attended both meetings, which were trying seasons to me, for want of more watchfulness on my part.

8. The accoutrement of a true Christian was brought with freshness to my mind soon after I sat down in meeting; and fervent desires raised,

after so excellent an attainment, that I might thereby be enabled to withstand the varied as saults of an unwearied enemy. It was a strengthening season to my poor mind.

15. A season of sweet solace in our little week-day meeting. I could not but lament that others should miss so great a privilege by letting trifling things keep them at *ome, or, if at meeting, suffering a lukewarm disposition to deprive them of this best of blessings, communion with their God.

-23. The rest of this week mostly spent in the service of others, and not wholly unprofitably, I

trust.

29. My tried mind instructed in my silent sitting to-day at meeting; and renewedly led to number my blessings, and see how much I owed unto the Lord.

FOURTH MONTH, 1799.

1. Our quarterly meeting. I thought the meeting for worship a season of renewed favour to our youth in particular. The meeting for discipline was very trying to my feelings from various

causes.

4. Our friends Mary Watson, Mary Alexander, and John Kirkham sat with us this morning. It proved a strengthening season to the drooping minds of some. "Blessed are they that

"mourn," was the encouraging language. Surely we have abundant cause of mourning, because of the increasing desolation in our society: the prospect whereof is ready to dismay the feeble travellers Sion-ward.

8. A precious, contriting season this morning, previous to our beloved friends leaving us: in which the dear young folks were affectionately encouraged to follow on to know the Lord. Dear W. T. was particularly addressed, our friends believing his tender mind had been preciously visited. How did all that was within me covet that the good seed which, I did believe, had been sown in the hearts of some of them might be cherished, and bring forth in due season fruits to the praise of the great and good Husbandman.

19. Heaviness of spirit has been my portion this day, discouragements of various kinds pressing hard upon me.

21. A day of mourning because of the desolation in our Sion, when those that should have been standard-bearers desert a cause so precious.

FIFTH MONTH, 1799.

1. After a season of conflict, my will was once more reduced, and I was enabled to adopt the language of, Not my will, O Lord, but thine be done.

5. Shamefully lukewarm this morning at meeting. In the afternoon a little strength was given to labour, which I think I did according to my small measure.

10. My mind hath enjoyed for several days. past a sweet tranquillity, to which it has of late been much a stranger. I feel, I trust, humbly. thankful for this favour, well knowing I cannot attain to it of myself.

5. Renewed desires after preservation, feeling myself much stripped of the sensible presence of Him, who is I trust the beloved of my soul.

6. My dear brother and sister Waring left us, which was no small trial to our feelings. We parted, I believe, in best love, and desires for each other's preservation.

7. Favoured in our little silent gathering with sweet access to the inexhaustible Source of all good. My heart overflowed with gratitude for blessings ancient and new.

9. Baptized afresh into a deep sense of my own nothingness; and the need I stand in of renewed supplies of strength; which I earnestly craved, that I might walk uprightly in humility and fear all my days.

II. Went to Guildford to meet dear Deborah