30. Some doubts and fears, lest I should not so run as to obtain, encompassed my poor mind, soon after my sitting down at meeting this morning: when some gracious promises were in great condescension brought livingly to my remembrance, to the lifting up of my head, and confirming my feeble knees. Thus bountifully is the Lord dealing with one of the meanest of his creatures. May I ever live to praise and adore his excellent name.

TENTH MONTH, 1804.

5. Our monthly meeting at Guildford, wherein I desired to be preserved from hewing out cisterns for myself, or resting satisfied with any thing short of partaking of the well-spring of life; which was renewedly revealed to my waiting soul, to my humble admiration: and I longed that all present might come, taste and see, for themselves, how good the Lord is.

7. Desired that I might be enabled to offer a pure offering this morning, unmixed with the activity of the creature; that so it might find acceptance with Him who is perfect in holiness. The afternoon meeting I thought very dull, nor did I keep so faithfully on the watch as I ought to

have dons.

10.

Think I have been favoured to move along the last three days with a good degree of safety. It was with me a time of deep wrestling,

this morning, before I could find access to the "Fountain of living waters, after which my soul thirsted; yet, thanks be to the holy name, my labour was not altogether in vain.

14. I believe a remnant were favoured to sit under their own vine and fig-tree, and feed as beside the still waters, this morning at meeting.

17. My mind under depressing sensations from various causes; under which I have endeavoured to centre near the only source of good and true consolation.

21. Desired this morning to sit at Wisdom's gate, and to be found waiting at the posts of her door. How did my soul long that all present knew the preciousness of pure silent worship, wherein [the soul] breathes forth its wants to its heavenly Creator; who at seasons is pleased to replenish it abundantly: for ever blessed be his excellent name. He is not saying to the seed of Jacob, "Seek ye me in vain."

28. Rather stripping seasons both morning and afternoon meetings.. I desired to hunger and thirst patiently.

ELEVENTH MONTH, 1804.

2. This morning unexpectedly dear William Jackson [of Pennsylvania] came, and attended our monthly meeting. He appeared acceptably in the meeting for worship; though he said he believed

he might appeal to the feelings of some present that the well was indeed deep, desiring we might not be discouraged, neither content ourselves with a traditional belief of the truths of the gospel.

4. Dear William Jackson still with us, and labouring in gospel love, to gather the outcasts of Israel into the fold of true rest and peace.

6. I accompanied W. J. to Alton. He had a meeting next morning at eleven o'clock, in which he was led in an encouraging line to the true mourners, and sweetly invited the children present to seek the Lord for themselves, &c. Not finding himself clear of Guildford, he returned and had a meeting there on sixth-day afternoon, in which he was led in a close searching testimony, endeavouring to rouse the lukewarm to a sense of their danger, and in persuasive language inviting to follow those things that make for peace.

1. I thought the morning meeting a preciously favoured season, both in the silent part of it, and under the lively ministry of William; who was concerned to have a public meeting in the evening, particularly desiring the company of the poor, and it was mostly this class attended. I thought him remarkably clothed for this service, explaining with great clearness the nature of true gospel worship, and directing the attention of the people to the inward teacher.

12. Our dear friend left us and went forward for Chichester. We parted in sweet fellowship, of which I thought myself unworthy to partake.

14. My mind much tried with various dist couragements, under which I have endeavoured to kéep in the stillness, and feel after that Rock which is an anchor sure and stedfast. O that my abiding was more constantly here: then should I not be so often the sport of winds and waves.

15. Still under depressing feelings : but I have remembered that man is not to live by bread alone, but by every word that procedeth out of the mouth of God. May I patiently abide every humbling dispensation.

18. Proving seasons both morning and afternoon meetings; yet was favoured not to let go my hold, though my faith was at a low ebb, and the prayer of my heart was that I might keep the word of the Lord's patience, that so I might be kept from the hour of temptation.

19. Sackcloth is still the secret covering of my mind, although I appear not unto men to fast.

23. I think my soul was bowed in deep prostration before the God of my life, who was graciously pleased to own me in this low estate by the lifting up of the light of his countenance upon me. May I walk worthy such unmerited mercy.

25. A day of heaviness of spirit, yet a little of the oil was graciously dispensed to my drooping seul in the morning meeting. In the afternoon mourning was my portion.

28. Desirous that the day's work may keep pace with the day, yet encompassed with fears, lest it should fall short. May the Lord be

my refuge in the day of trouble, and then let come what will come.

TWELFTH MONTH, 1804.

1. Still moving heavily on my way; discourage ments from within and without; yet have not let go my confidence, which I esteem a mercy from the Lord.

2. Afflictions still await us. May they have the designed effect, which is, doubtless, to wean us from every earthly dependance, and incite to seek with more fervency an habitation that hath foundations, eternal in the heavens. Ah, may I indeed so run as to obtain this enduring treasure; for here seems no rest for my wearied soul.

3. Thoroughly dissatisfied with myself, believ ing I have not been so watchful as I should have been, and therefore am deservedly disquieted.

6. Our monthly meeting at Guildford, an unusually exercising time to me from several causes. Paid off a little debt to a beloved nephew and niece.

9. My head a little lifted above the waves of discouragement, and my soul for a season arrayed with the garment of praise, being graciously admitted into the presence of its beloved.

II. In some degree pressing after the mark for the prize.