languid; yet after a while got better: renewed cause of thankfulness! O, that I may be made enough so, for even this disposition is not at our command, but as we receive it from God who is the giver of every good and perfect gift.

5. Some unpleasant circumstances; and my mind not so comfortable as at many times, having let in some doubts; yet I trust desirous of being directed aright even in what may appear trifling things.

6. Still embarrassed; yet have concluded to do what appears safest, though contrary to my inclination.

7. My mind seems relieved by doing what I believed right, yet found it hard work this morning at meeting to get at the spring, but was at length favoured with a little refreshment, which my soul panted after.

10. Rose with fresh desires after heaven and heavenly treasure; and that I might be preserved from every appearance of evil. In the afternoon, when I sat down to work, I felt my spirit unexpectedly contrited before the Lord; thankful for this favour, I laid it aside, and sat in much tenderness before him a considerable time, for sweet indeed is his love. O, that I was a more worthy partaker.

Have been led this morning to admire with humble thankfulness, the continued kindness and long suffering of a gracious God towards one so unworthy, and that in all my wanderings, he

should be pleased to watch over me with a father's love, and bring me gently back again into his fold. How can I do less than [thus] commemorate his goodness, who hath dealt so bountifully with me, a poor worm!

16. Made myself work to-day by suffering my mind to go after trifling things, before I went to meeting, so that I was obliged to labour to get clear of them; yet, after awhile was favoured far be yond my deserts, even with the liftings up of the light of the Lord's countenance upon me. my soul, how vast is the debt thou owest! mayest thou walk in deep humility and fear before him..

20. Nothing particular has occurred these last few days; a portion of each has been spent in retirement, and, I may with gratitude acknowledge, that in these solitary sittings, I have felt the overshadowing of the Divine wing, to my great refreshment and encouragement; yet I also retain a humbling sense of my manifold weaknesses.

30. After some conflict with a wandering disposition, both in the morning and afternoon meetings was favoured to partake of the hidden manna which can alone nourish the soul up to eternal life; and was led a little to behold the beauty and excellency of that state of innocence in which our first parents were created, and to aspire after it.

TENTH MONTH, 1792.

1. My mind disquieted and uncomfortable at meeting with a disappointment, for want of that true resignation with which we ought to meet every event.

2. More comfortable, yet do not feel that entire resignation of my will to the Lord's will which I have laboured after, having no doubt but every dispensation is ordered in unerring wisdom ; yet nature is sometimes ready to start aside. O, that mine may be brought into true subjection, is the sincere prayer of my heart.

3. Am comforted to feel my mind restored to its wonted tranquillity. Being in company in the evening, gave way too much to the vivacity of my disposition, so that it bordered on levity, for which I felt condemnation.

4. As soon as I awoke this morning the recollection of last evening presented itself painfully, so that I was humbled under a sense of my weakness before the Lord, who I believe accepted my penitence and restored peace to my soul. How unmerited this favour!

5. Our dear friends Martha Howarth and Priscilla Hannah Gurney came to pay us a religious visit; my heart rejoiced to see them; they attended our week-day meeting, which was also our monthly meeting; the former had a very close time in testimony, apprehending the feelings given

her that there was unfaithfulness amongst us; and was led to speak of the parable of the sower, and the different kinds of ground the good seed was sown in, and the various things which prevented its growth, &c.

7. The above-mentioned friends attended our meeting, Martha Howarth again led in a close manner to expostulate with some amongst us, who she believed were not grieved for the afflictions of Joseph, but were settled down in a state of carnal security. My mind was much humbled under the consideration that the Lord should in great condescension thus permit his chosen servants to plead with the gainsayers.

24. My soul hath adopted the language of one formerly; "If I forget thee, O Jerusalem, let my "right hand forget her cunning. If I do not re"member thee, let my tongue cleave to the roof "of my mouth; if I prefer not Jerusalem above my chief joy."

31. The morning taken up with family affairs and attending my* scholars, and the afternoon in visiting, so that I could find no time for retirement, which I regret, having doubtless suffered loss.

ELEVENTH MONTH, 1792.

4. I felt the renewed extension of the heavenly Father's love soon after I sat down in meeting this

* She for some years kept a school for about eight or ten poor children.

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morning, and Oh, with what joy did I meet the beloved of souls! How vast is the debt I owe him! May I manifest my gratitude by a more steady obedience and unreserved dedication of heart. I desire to do so; but I fear my own instability.

6. My time so fully taken up that there seemed no time for retiring these two days; yet I trust the general disposition of my heart hath been right. Received an instructive lesson last evening by the departure of one (of whom I had entertained a far different opinion) from the simplicity which once adorned her. My heart was sorely pained on her, account, and with tears I besought the Lord on my own, lest I should also fall by the way, and I felt a willingness to be stripped of every earthly delight rather than forfeit this best of blessings, his favour, which alone can truly enrich.

14. A fresh scene of trial and affliction opened in the alarming illness of my dear sister * Lettice; and Oh, the prayer of my heart hath been that it may be brought into a perfect resignation to every dispensation of unerring wisdom; for "shall not the Judge of the whole earth do ❝right."

18. A humbling time at meeting this morn ing, feeling afresh my inability to take one step aright, without divine assistance; yet my faith and strength a little renewed in the all-sufficiency of

Wife of Jeremiah Waring, Alton, Hants.