day. O, for an increase, of this excellent virtue; which enables to bear all things with meekness.

THIRD MONTH, 1795.

1. Methought my mind resembled the barren heath or wilderness when I sat down in meeting to-day; neither dew nor fields of offering: yet was the Lord graciously pleased to bestow both these divine blessings after waiting awhile, to him be the praise who is alone worthy.

5. My close attention to my dear father, and frequent visits to the sick, joined to family concerns, hath not left me much time for religious retirement this week, yet have believed I was in of my my duty.

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6. Went to monthly-meeting this morning under much depression of mind (occasioned by my dear father's and uncle Kidd's illness), where my strength and confidence in the Lord was renewed, and I was in a good degree enabled to say "Thy will be done."

8. A precious heart-tendering season at meet ing to-day, though no ministering friend present; methought the minister of the sanctuary was known amongst us by the breaking of bread..

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These several days too much occupied with outward things, so that the better part hath not been improved as much as it probably might, had I been more retired in my mind.

13. My soul thirsted this morning for the living God, who in great condescension appeared to my comfort and refreshment, may I walk more worthy such unmerited favours..

15. Though tried with a roving disposition when I first sat down at meeting this morning, yet the Lord was pleased to bless my feeble endeavours to maintain the warfare, and graciously to lift up the light of his glorious countenance upon me, and, removing the spirit of heaviness, to give me the garment of praise.

21. This week hath been pretty fully occupied in close attention to my dear father, who hath been and continues very ill.

22. My dear father better; cause of thankfulness. When I sat down in meeting this morning methought I felt the hovering wing of ancient Goodness, but getting off my watch lost ground, and was left for a while in a dry and barren spot. Yet I was desirous that I might not be tempted in the absence of my spiritual Moses to make to my. self a calf and worship it, as the Israelites did formerly, and He who saw the sincerity of my heart was pleased to appear again with healing under his wings. O, may I be enabled to make a suitable return for such unmerited goodness and mercy.

27. Favoured with a little of the brook by the way, in my solitary sitting this morning in my chamber.

29. Was led this morning at meeting to number my blessings, and to acknowledge, in the depth

of humility, my utter unworthiness of the manifoldkindness and condescension of the Lord towards me ; and also to crave a continuance of his fatherly care and providence over me, well knowing, from a fresh feeling thereof, that he was the centre of all good.

31. My dear father seized with epilepsy, so that for many hours we had not the least expectation of his recovery. In this season of sore conflict I found it necessary to repair to the Rock of my strength, and had not he graciously sustained me, surely I had fainted; but in his wonted goodness he was pleased to walk on the sea, and command a calm, so that my poor mind was brought into great quietness, and could in a good degree adopt the language of Thy will and not mine be done.

FOURTH MONTH, 1795.

2. My dear father worse again; has been delirious all night, and still remains so: so that there is fresh need to apply for renewal of strength and resignation to the divine will...

3. Felt the hovering wing of ancient Goodness as I sat by my dear father's bed-side to-day; and was comforted in believing he was made a partaker of the blessing.

6. Went to Guildford to attend the quarterly meeting, beset with many fears lest I should not be able to go through the business. The meeting for

worship I thought a low season, but was helped in the meeting for discipline to get through the business to tolerable satisfaction; to the Lord be the praise, to whom my soul bows in humble gratitude for all his mercies both ancient and new.

9. The two last days taken up with company, &c. yet when in company my soul hath at seasons flown to the ark of its rest, finding none in any thing short of the divine excellency.

26. Though I sat down at meeting this morning in much poverty, yet through the goodness of the Shepherd of Israel my little store was increased, and my soul satisfied with his living presence. Unspeakable favour!

28. My mind sweetly encouraged and animated to press forward towards the mark, by reading the account of my dear aunt Townsend's last journey into Scotland. The perfect dedication of heart that appears, is comfortable, as well as her peaceful close. May I so walk that my latter end may be like hers.

30. Had to feel and lament my natural proneness to evil. Surely, I often think, none more so, so that unless the Lord, who hitherto has preserved me (blessed for ever be his name!) be still graciously pleased to watch over me, I shall yet, I fear, fall by the way: I love to feel my dependance, and from whence my help cometh.

FIFTH MONTH, 1795.

3. Staid at home with my father in the morning. In the afternoon laboured according to ability; when, after a while, the stone was rolled from the well's mouth, and my thirsty soul refreshed with living water. Others also I believe were partakers with me in this unmerited blessing.

8. Under much depression on account of a fresh scene of trial. O, that He, who hath seen meet to afflict, may be pleased to sustain through this trying dispensation.

9. My mind sweetly encouraged this morning `at meeting with a renewed evidence, that though the Lord afflicts he hath not forsaken. For ever blessed be his holy name.

II. A time of close inward exercise this morning, at meeting; was desirous I might not get from under it, or off my watch, which I was enabled to maintain till the meeting broke up.

15. Humbled deeply under a sense of some failures; yet was desirous of abiding under the purifying hand, that the wound might not be healed deceitfully.

21. These several days have been fully taken up with company and attending my dear father; who has had another alarming seizure.

24. A time of sweet solace in my solitary sitting in my father's chamber; while the family were at meeting this morning.