Burlington, in North America: in the evening, I and my wife accompanied him, with many other friends, to a meeting, appointed at Ware; in which he ministered with much acceptance.

5. The aforesaid friend attended a meeting appointed at Hartford, and, in the evening, another at Hoddesdon; in both of which he was much favored in his ministerial labours. This day, after dinner, I was seized with a violent spasm, which was renewed with such violence in going to Hoddesdon, as seemed to indicate the feelings of approaching death. I was almost miraculously favored to sit the meeting easily; but afterwards, my pains returned.

6. After attending our week-day meeting, dear G. D. left Hartford. By his late extensive labours amongst us, he has shewn the proofs of an evangelical ministry; as a skilful workman, rightly dividing the word of truth, not seeking to gather the people to any thing of man, but to an experimental knowledge of the gift of God; "the mystery hid from ages and generations;" Christ in them the hope of glory."

II. At the quarterly meeting at London, I sat down in lowness of flesh and spirit; but, after some time, I was enabled to remember him, who giveth "songs in the night," and who can irradiate the dark valley of the shadow of death.

13. Walking in the Grange, I remembered the days of my childhood and youth; since which, "my sorrows have been turned upon me:" but

Jesus, the first and the last, the same yesterday, to-day, and for ever, died for us;" "that whether we wake or sleep, we might live together with him."

18. A pretty easy, but low day: little being felt of those everlasting healings, which are under the wing of Emanuel.

19. I sat down in the week-day meeting, at Horslydown, in great weakness and poverty of spirit; but, pretty soon, the forgiveness proposed by our blessed Lord, when he said, "If you forgive men their trespasses, then will your heavenly Father also forgive you," was suddenly impressed, and much illustrated in my mind, but not expressed. I would not willingly "conceal the words of the Holy One," but am discouraged from speaking in the assemblies of the people; not so much because of them, but rather, because I have not hitherto completely obtained victory over the enemies of my own house. May I, in my declining years, and in great debility of flesh and spirit, be still enabled to "press after the mark for the prize of the high calling of God, in Christ Jesus."

26. Unprofitable confabulations having prevailed in the morning, I went to the week-day meeting, at Horslydown, in terror; where, it being suddenly suggested, without much expectation or illustration, that Christ is the Mediator of the covenant of grace, my mind became measurably calmed. When every refuge fails, F

the Lord is able to relieve the disconsolate soul, that is tossed with tempests, and driven to the ends of the earth. The meeting was wholly silent.

30. This month, bodily pains and severe spasms have been often attendant; "the earthly house of this tabernacle" has been shaken; no growth in grace and goodness has been perceptibly experienced; satan having been at my right hand to resist me.

31. In the afternoon meeting at Hartford, former openings, which had been presented with freshness, were remembered; but they were as the manna of yesterday.

ELEVENTH MONTH, 1784.

6. My bodily health seems measurably recovered, indispositions having been wonderfully suspended; but I have been greatly deficient in a tribute of praise to the Preserver of men; according to the import of that which is written, "he that offereth praise, glorifieth me; and to him, who ordereth his conversation aright, will I shew of my salvation."

13. This week, "the fruits of righteousness have been measurably sown in peace."

14. Although attended with various discouragements, I found an inclination to attend the forenoon meeting at Gracechurch-street; and, soon after sitting down, my mind was freed from

dismay, and dipped into a fresh sense of that introversion and spiritual worship in self-nothingness and prostration, which we, as a people, peculiarly profess: sundry passages in holy writ, relative thereto, were livingly opened; and the exercise was continued through the course of the meeting, under divers testimonies, which were delivered. A sabbath day! a memorable day! some sense of divine favor presiding through the whole.

16. At Horslydown week-day meeting, I was measurably relieved, by a word internally imparted, and under the ministry of G. D.

28. A day of distress in the valley of vision, from my own unfitness to be unclothed of mortality. I was under great condemnation, because of "deeds done in the body," particularly for the errors of advanced years; the too frequent prevalence of petulance, and the too great indulgence of my appetite in eating and drinking: errors overlooked and palliated by men, but marked by Him, "whose eyes are as a flame of fire;" who "searcheth the heart, and trieth the reins," and hath declared, If any man will be my disciple, "let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me:" which following of the Son of Man in the regeneration, consists not only in suffering, for his sake, the reproach of men; but also in the mortification of our propensities, in the things which may be esteemed lawful by men, but are condemned by Him, who seeth not as man seeth.

When I review my want of a due allegiance to the Saviour of men herein, my heart meditates terror, and my iniquities are a heavy burthen before him, who is a "just God and a Saviour;" who will not acquit the guilty, nor suffer sin to go unpunished.

TWELFTH MONTH, 1784.

4. This week, having been pretty much confined, by reason of a humour in my leg, I hope that, through the aboundings of divine grace, I have been measurably enabled to seek for that which I was concerned to recommend to others, the last time I appeared in public, viz. the seeking for heavenly "treasure in our earthen vessels." I have also had an opportunity of being much exercised in reading the Holy Scriptures, and other pious and experimental treatises. My present confinement is indeed a chastening not joyous, but yet to be received with thanksgiving, if in any degree it may be productive of the "peaceable fruits of righteousness." O! may I, as at the eleventh hour of the day, and during the present dispensation, be enabled more faithfully and fervently to feel after that salvation, which is only through Jesus Christ, the fountain set open, for remission and sanctification, whose blood "cleanseth from all sin."

8. The great concern was measurably kept in