low day, much "in the valley of the shadow of death."

18. I attended the funeral of my brother, at Radcliff. When I reached my own apartments, in Tooley-street, I found divers letters from my friends, which afforded some consolation to my poor disconsolate spirit.

21.

In the forenoon meeting, at Hartford, some solemnity attended, with desires for sparing and forbearing mercy; that I might yet praise the Lord in the land of the living, and the assemblies of the people.

23. A pretty comfortable day; not without some lookings towards the land which is on the other side of Jordan.

25. A cold snowy day, and tempestuous as to weather, but rather peaceable within. O! that I may yet, as in the latest periods of human life, experience the cross of Christ inwardly prevailing, with a sense of his pardoning love for the manifold errors of my past life: his love, indeed, "passeth knowledge," and is unsearchable as the deep.

27. In the course of nature, the messenger on the pale horse must be near; perhaps, as on the very threshhold of the door: may I experience death to be abolished, and life and immortality to be brought to light, through the gospel, which is the power of God unto salvation.

31. In the week-day meeting, I was exercised in mental prayer and meditation; I hope measu

rably by the spirit that quickeneth. This being the last day in the year 1783, amidst various interruptions, I have reviewed the works of Jehovah, and his wonders in the deep: towards the close, a very affecting scene was attendant in the visiting my brother John Scott, on his death-bed. "Gather up the fragments that remain that nothing be lost," was the command of our great master; consistent with which, I esteem it my duty to preserve, and make known to some, the dying expressions of the deceased; as a testimony to the cause of Christianity, and the power of Christ; being fully persuaded that "there is no name given under heaven, or amongst men, whereby we must be saved," but the name of Jesus Christ: both as he was in the fulness of time manifested in the flesh, and as he is declared in power to be the Son of God, according to the spirit of holiness, by the resurrection from the dead; and Christ within, "the hope of glory," "the Lord our righteousness." In the evening, during a sitting in silence in a friend's house, I was favored with a sense of that mercy, which I so much need, and so little deserve.

FIRST MONTH, 1784.

1. This day, amidst bodily pains and various interruptio s, hath been passed under some sense of the Divine Presence," in the house of my

pilgrimage," may the same be increased from day to day, until "mortality is swallowed up of life." "Walk before me, and be thou perfect;" was the command of God to Abraham, who was no legalist, but saw the day of Christ, and was glad. 2. A calm day within, and clear from those communications which gender to bondage. Thanks to the preserver of men.

7. During most part of the week-day meeting, an exercise was continued to get near to Christ, in spirit; and divers openings attended, respecting the advantage thereof; but I was fearful of imparting to others, what might be only intended for myself. Afterwards, in the Seal fields, some tenderness and compunction of spirit was experienced before him, who "doth great things past finding out; yea, and wonders without number."

8. In the evening, walking in the fields near Dunkirks, these words, although I believe not precisely contained in Scripture, were impressed on my mind, with some savour and application, viz. the Lamb shall be their leader.

9. The Lamb shall be their leader. May the Lamb, who hath been slain from the foundation of fallen nature in man, overcome; "angels, authorities, and powers being made subject to him."

10. This week, various causes of sorrow have attended; but not without a hope "in those mercies which are new every morning."

17. An inward exercise was supported, with E

some degree of strength and freshness, during the fore part of the week; since, rather a relaxation therein has prevailed.

20. In the week-day meeting, I sat under some sense of " that faith, which is by the ope

ration of God."

30. For some time past, I have been employed in a work which has long been before me, viz. the revising, correcting, and abridging my diary, which was begun in the year 1780. Wonderful have been the Lord's dealings with me, and his mercies, which can never be recounted. May the recording of them prove a way-mark to the weary !

12.

SECOND MONTH, 1784.

As I was getting into a chaise, I broke my shin; by which means I was almost wholly confined within doors, until the 9th of the third month. At times I was thankful to "the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named," that no more severe an infliction had befallen me.

FOURTH MONTH, 1784.

5. In the monthly meeting, the iniquities of my holy things were set in order before me; particularly, in concerns in the ministry and disci

pline. My most early appearances in the former, were at a time when pursuits of a different kind much engrossed my attention: in respect to the latter, there long existed a zeal, which was incompatible with true knowledge, and that fear of the Lord, which "is the beginning of wisdom;" instead of judgment there was frequently a cry, somewhat similar to what was formerly uttered, "Come with me, and see my zeal for the Lord.” I much sought after the praise and approbation of faithful men, and I had my reward. But the Lord seeth not as man seeth, and "bringeth every work into judgment, with every secret thing." "For judgment I am come into this world," said the faithful and true witness; and the spirit reproveth" of sin, of righteousness, and of judgment." May all, who are at ease in Zion, bow before him, who is "judge of quick and dead;" that in the valley of Achor may be opened a door of hope.

15. After a painful and troublesome night, with an old complaint, I was seized with severe spasms.

16. This day was passed pretty inoffensively, yet not without room for amendment; I will set a bridle before "the door of my lips :" if we were at all times careful so to do, we should often obtain strength in silence, and by our words be justified.

21. The week-day meeting was a large, solid