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our Saviour, in whom I rejoiced with exceeding great joy. At the Confirmation, on Maundy-Thursday, I promised with hand and heart that I would surrender myself wholly to the Lord Jesus, and be His faithful follower to the end of my life. On Good-Friday I partook of the Holy Communion, under an inexpressible sense of the presence and peace of Jesus. What have I not enjoyed at that time, during the reading of the Scriptures and Hymns treating of our Saviour's passion! I then loved and rejoiced in Him, because I felt His love toward me in so powerful a manner; but I was as yet unconscious of the deep depravity and corruption of my own heart, and consequently knew Him not as my soul's physician: I loved him as a child loves a parent, without perceiving how helpless it is without him.

Hitherto I had attended school with much pleasure, but it was now thought proper that I should go apprentice to some business. In 1763 I went to live at Bethelsdorff, when I enjoyed the care of the Brethren at Herrnhut, whither I frequently went on a visit, and was always very kindly treated. In 1764, I had a dangerous illness: being given up by the physician, I rejoiced at it, hoping soon to see Jesus face to face, whom my soul loved.

In 1765 my master died, and I obtained leave to move to Herrnhut. My joy on coming to live in a Settlement of the Brethren was inexpressibly great; and, in the beginning, I enjoyed a great share of happiness, through the mercy of my Saviour: but not yet knowing myself, though I admired the order and excellent regulations among the Brethren, I did not feel the necessity of strict attention to my own heart, and daily dependence on the strength and grace of our Saviour. In the same year, I was received into the Congregation; and, March 19, 1766, became a partaker of the Lord's Supper. What I experienced on this solemn occasion, no tongue can tell. I again devoted myself to my Crucified Redeemer with my whole heart.

For about a year after that event, I continued in a simple, childlike, and cheerful course; but, in the year 1767, I began to perceive various evil desires springing up within me, which not a little alarmed and perplexed me. I sought and received wholesome advice from my Brethren; and obtained some more insight into the nature of salvation

by the free grace of Jesus, without any merit or recommending qualification of my own; as likewise into the necesssity of living entirely by faith, and relying on the power of His redemption alone for deliverance from the love and dominion of sin. But as I became more acquainted with myself as a sinner, I grew shy; and was afraid, that if my Brethren knew me as I began to know myself, I should soon not only be deprived of the Lord's Supper, but excluded from their fellowship. This notion rendered me unhappy beyond measure; and so unintelligibly reserved, that at length they began to think me a mere hypocrite, and to treat me in a manner perhaps not the most judicious. At length I concluded that I would leave Herrnhut, and go to Zeyst in Holland, where I had, in the late Brother von Bruiningk, a friend who knew me well, and in whom I had confidence. Though advised not to take that journey, I persisted in my resolution; and, on my arrival at Zeyst, in 1768, found that the said Brother had gone to England. I requested leave to remain at Zeyst, but could not obtain it. My attempts to settle at Neudietendorf and Nisky were equally fruitless; and, at length, the Brethren at Herrnhut gave me a Recommendatory Letter to the Society at Berlin.

During this whole season of perplexity and unhappiness, however, a firm determination to live no where but among a people of God, and an abhorrence of a life of sinful pleasure in the world, were through mercy preserved in me. Numberless were the tears which I shed over my wretched state; commending myself and my case to the compassion of my only Helper in need: but it was His will that I should first learn to know myself as a sinner, and part with all my former notions of goodness and self-made righteousness, and become willing to obtain salvation through His free grace alone. Meanwhile he preserved me in the midst of this fiery trial.

At Berlin, I found Br. Gottfried Mann, a kind and faithful friend, who gave me the best advice: he directed me to go with all my wants and spiritual sickness to Jesus, as the only Saviour and Healer of His people; and, in so doing, I found comfort and peace returning to my heart.

In 1771 I had a violent fit of illness, in which my life was despaired of: during this period the Holy Spirit led me still more into the knowledge of the poverty

and weakness of human-nature, directing me to seek life and happiness in our Saviour alone. After my recovery, I wrote to Herrnhut, and obtained permission to return thither; but circumstances preventing my availing myself of it immediately, I meanwhile enjoyed much blessing in fellowship with the Society at Berlin.

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October 6, 1772, I arrived at Herrn hut, and was received with great kindOn the 20th of the same month, while meditating on the meritorious sufferings and death of our Saviour, I obtained such a view of my interest in His atonement, that I was quite overwhelmed with shame, joy, and thankfulness, and surrendered myself up anew to Him: it was to me as though He spake peace unto my soul from His cross, filling my heart with joy and gladness. I desired from henceforth no greater favour in this world, than to offer up my life and all for Him and His service, out of gratitude for what He had done and suffered for me: but I now thought my self much too mean and worthless for it; and told no one what was passing in my own heart. Sometimes, indeed, the Minister who had the care of the Single Brethren would ask me, whether I had not an inclination to serve the Lord among the Heathen: my answer was in the affirmative, if I might go to Antigua, which was then, as it is now, a flourish ing Mission. He replied, "That I be lieve, for it is coming in for a rich harvest: but how would you feel, supposing you were to go to some place where you must first sow in tears? do you think you would then persevere in your resolution?" I owned that for this I felt too weak, and could not as yet endure much, unless strengthened for the purpose by the Lord Himself. Meanwhile I kept quiet, cleaving to my Saviour by faith, living in the enjoyment of His love and peace, satisfied with the goodness of His house, and highly valuing the privileges of the Congregation, Thanks be to Him for having always preserved within me a spark of the fire of His love!

In August 1775, I received a call to serve the Mission in the East Indies. Nothing but a full conviction that I owed my all to our Saviour could have induced me to accept of that situation, which I did in reliance on His grace and strength alone. I set out from my favourite Herrnhut, accompanied by the

best wishes and prayers of the Congregation, under a deep sense of the unmerited love of my Brethren: it cost me, indeed, abundance of tears to leave this city of God, which I considered as the place of my spiritual birth; but I had the grace given me to be entirely resigned to the will of the Lord. At Barby, a General Synod of the Brethren's Church assembled in that year, and I partook of much blessing in converse with many servants of God, but especially with David Zeisberger, jun. and the late dear and reverend Brother Benjamin Latrobe, the deputy from England: the latter often sent for me, favoured me with a visit, or took a walk with me. I was astonished at the love and condescension of such distinguished men; but have since discovered, that it was owing to their desire of imparting good advice to so inexperienced a beginner as I then was, being myself not aware of my great weakness and unfitness for the Lord's work. A conversation which I had with the lastmentioned of those worthy Brethren, on a walk to Monplaisir, I shall never forget: he made many inquiries about my former life and experience; and spoke in such a manner on subjects connected with it, that my heart, as it were, melted within me, and I felt most intimately united with him in spirit: on our return, when we had nearly reached home, he stopped, and, taking hold of my hand, said " My Dear Brother, if you would become a faithful witness for Jesus, you must live in Him, and He in you." I answered-" That is my daily prayer." "I know it," replied he: but it must be much more so, for you will have to pass through many trials in the East Indies; but, take courage: our Saviour will bring you through them all." These were the last words that I ever exchanged with that excellent man, for he left Barby on the day following: they sunk deep into my heart.

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September 19th, we had our farewellmeeting with the Elders' Conference of the Unity; and set out, being four in company. Nothing deserving of particular notice occurred on the voyage; and we arrived, July 9, 1776, at the Brethren's Garden near Tranquebar. The impression made upon my mind, when I entered this place, was not of a favourable kind; but I remained quietly resigned, and committed myself anew to the Lord and His guidance, praying earnestly to Him to help me through

all difficulties; and He has heard and answered me.

In 1778, I received a call to Nicobar; but, though I set out in September, I did not arrive at Nancauwery till January 1779, where I found the Brethren Blaschke, Liebisch, and Heyne. I entered now upon a series of trials, such as I had never before experienced. Br. Blaschke, being very ill, returned with the vessel which brought me; and, soon after, departed this life: before he left us, he, with the consent of the other two Brethren, committed the external affairs of the Mission to me: being the youngest of the three, and unacquainted with the duties of that situation, I was not a little concerned about it; but our Saviour heard and helped me. In whatever I undertook, I sought His assistance, in prayer, and with many tears; and He granted me such evident tokens of his blessing, that my weak faith was often put to shame: he also prevented all harm, when I was guilty of mistakes and mismanagement. I soon gained the love of the Nicobar People; and was honoured by them with the title of "Kanni," which expresses the highest degree of friendship.

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bility, so long, that they laid me out as a corpse, and began to dig my grave; but, to their surprise, I opened my eyes; and, astonished at the situation in which I found myself, inquired why they wept, which they answered by exclaiming, What, are you again alive!" thanking God for having restored me. The force of the disorder was broken; but I recovered very slowly, especially as one species of fever followed after the other. During the whole of my abode in the Nicobar Islands, I enjoyed but little health, fevers and ulcers in my legs being almost constantly upon me; and To THIS DAY, being upward of thirty-four years from that time, I have, every fourth day, a regular return of the same feverish symptoms, more or less, which no remedy, no translocation, nor climate, has been able to remove.

Our outward subsistence now began to give me much concern and trouble of mind, and my faith and confidence in God was frequently very weak: of this I am heartily ashamed; for, amidst all our difficulties, which were, indeed, very great, He cared for us as our gracious Heavenly Father. But the most painful part of our situation was this-that, I had not been quite three weeks in with all the sufferings which we had to the island, before I was attacked by the endure, and all the pains which we took, Nicobar fever; and both myself and my it appeared as if nothing would be gained Brethren were persuaded, that I could for the Cause of our Saviour, and not not possibly recover, as the paroxysms one of the poor islanders be brought to increased in violence day by day. In the knowledge of the truth. I also, as this distress my faithful Lord and Sa- the poorest and most unworthy of His viour was ever present with me, and His servants employed here, have shed num. divine peace filled my soul, insomuch berless tears in prayer and supplication that I could look forward to my disso- before Him in behalf of these blind, lution with joy. At length (as the ignorant, and deluded Heathen; but, it Brethren informed me) I got up in a fit seems, their time was not yet come. of delirium, and attempted to go out: they checked me, however, and led me back into my room, where I fainted, and fell down in convulsions, being, according to their opinion, in the last agony: they therefore, with many tears, commended me in prayer to the Lord, and laid me on the bed. Here I remained, in a state of apparent insensi

* For a more particular account of his residence in the Nicobar Islands, see a small work entitled "Letters on the Nicobar Islands," published by C. I. Latrobe; in which the manners, customs, and character of these islanders are described, with an account of the attempt made by the Missionaries from the Church of the Brethren to convert them to Christianity. This work was compiled from memorandums written for the editor by our late

Brother, the only surviving Missionary, and from other genuine documents, and thrown into the form of Letters; furnishing one of the most curious, as well as authentic records concerning a people hitherto unknown to most readers, and full of interesting, entertaining, and edifying matter.

At the end of the year 1784, I was again attacked by a disorder which brought me near to the grave, in which I hoped to lay down my weary bones to rest; but the Lord had other views with me. A Danish Ship arrived, with which I returned to Tranquebar. After that, I went again twice to Nancauwery; and, the last time, with a commission to fetch home Br. Kragh, the only remaining Missionary, and to break up the establishment: this was the most painful task that I had to perform, and cost me many tears, On our return, we suffered shipwreck at Porto Novo, eight leagues from Tranquebar: here we lay on a sand-bank on the south side of the Kolloram, and could procure no assistance: having, as well as we could,

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brought our cargo into safety, I left Br. his Life add the following partiKragh with it, and travelled alone on foot to Tranquebar, got help, and, after securing the property, returned, with Br. Kragh, to the Brethren's Garden, where we arrived February 23, 1787. After long delays, owing to a variety of circumstances, I accompanied two children to Europe, in October 1792.

I might say much more concerning my stay of eighteen years in the East Indies, but I am aware that it would not answer any good end. We failed entirely as to the object of the Mission. Having arrived at Herrnhut in July 1793, I improved the season of rest afforded me in the best manner that I could; and the privileges enjoyed in such a family of God were most important and precious to my soul. I was soon employed in attending the sick, till I was myself taken ill of a violent inflammation of the lungs, from which I recovered very slowly.

Meanwhile, I had received a call to serve the Mission among the Negroes in the Danish West-India-Islands, of which I also accepted; having the confidence, that the same Lord, who had hitherto helped me through so many difficulties, would be gracious unto me, and grant me still to serve Him with gladness.

July 22d, I married, at Nisky, Sister Anna Harnapp; and, in November following, set sail from Altona, and arrived, in January 1796, in St. Thomas.

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station was New Herrnhut; where, having, by the Lord's blessing on our exertions, soon learnt the Creole Language, we rejoiced to be able to testify of the love of Jesus to the Negroes in this island. Oh how did I rejoice at length to see such a large congregation of believers from among the Heathen! We both felt a great love for the Negroes; and their affection for us made our poor services among them a delightful employment.

The Missionary here enters into a detail of the changes of situation which befel him, the death of his wife, and the other circumstances of his family, till his return to Europe in April 1810; when he delivered his son, John Frederick, who was blind, to the care of his friends in Germany: he arrived at Herrnhut in October, where his own narrative closes. The Editors of

Having married the Widow Sister, Elizabeth Wietz, who had long served the Mission in Surinam with her late husband, Br. Haensel returned to his post, and arrived again in St. Thomas, May 3, 1811, where he was welcomed with great cordiality and affection by the Negro Congregation at Nisky.

He now resumed his former labours with much activity and diligence; but it soon became evident that his health was fast declining, and he expressed his conviction that he should not remain long here below: yet no one expected

that he would be so soon called to rest from his labours.

His chief complaint lay in his head, with great weakness in his legs. The Nicobar fever accompanied him to his end. On his birth-day 1813, he was cheerful, and apparently well, but said to his wife that it would certainly be his last on the following day he complained of illness; but the natural strength of his constitution bore him up till the 20th of November, when he admi nistered the Holy Communion, and addressed his Negro Flock for the last time. Being much spent, he hastened to bed, in a high fever, which was followed by other disorders and a violent cough: he had little rest, and suffered much; but cried to the Lord for help and patience, frequently exclaiming, "Yes, I know my Saviour, and am sure that He will not forsake me: I therefore rejoice in Him." Once he said, "Oh my Saviour, is it not yet enough! No, Thou must yet see something in

me, from which Thou wilt cleanse me."

He was sorry to be obliged to spend Christmas Eve and Day in bed. When the Negroes visited him, he expressed to them his love and thankfulness in the most affectionate manner. His conversation with white and black people treated always of eternal things; and of the mercy of the Lord toward him, in revealing Himself to him as his Redeemer and the Physician of his soul. heart lived constantly in the enjoyment of the peace and presence of God, for he knew in whom he believed. Respecting his poor blind son, he often prayed that the Lord might regard him with pity and compassion; and added, that if he only gave himself up to Jesus, he would be well cared for. His illness increasing

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from day to day, he most earnestly longed for his release; and, having spoken with his wife about all his outward concerns, added, Our Saviour will certainly comfort and support you." February 13th, he received the Holy Sacrament in his room; and, on taking the blessed bread and wine, said-" This is, indeed, the body of my Lord broken, and his blood shed, for me, which shall nourish me to everlasting life." Every night the Negro Brethren and Sisters took their turn to watch with him, when he always expressed his gratitude to them with much affection. Thus ended the laborious life of this faithful servant

of Jesus, on the 17th, gently and happily, in the 65th year of his age. A very numerous company of Negroes and White People accompanied his remains to their resting-place; and numberless tears were shed by the Congregation, with whom his faithful services will long be held in blessed remembrance. In all places in which he served the Negroes with the Gospel, he had the character of a faithful, zealous, and affectionate Minister, whose whole heart lived in the work to which he was appointed, and who was deservedly beloved and respected by the Congregations.

Proceedings and Entelligence. United Kingdom.

ANNIVERSARIES.

MERCHANT SEAMENS' BIBLE SOCIETY.

NINTH ANNIVERSARY.

THE Annual Meeting was held on the 20th of April, at Twelve o'Clock, at the City-of-London Tavern; the Rt. Hon. the Lord Mayor in the Chair. Collection, 291. 6s. 7d.

Movers and Seconders. Rev. Andrew Brandram; and Captain Colin Campbell, C.B. R.N.-Rob. H. Marten, Esq.; and Captain Alfred Chapman - Captain Hawker, R.N.; and Captain Bell-Zachary Macaulay, Esq.; and Rev. Mr. Miller-and Lancelot Haslope, Esq.; and Captain Gowan. State of the Funds.

Receipts of the Year:

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LANGUAGE INSTITUTION.
SECOND ANNIVERSARY.

THE Annual Meeting was held at Freemasons' Tavern, at Twelve o'Clock, on Thursday the 26th of April; the President, Lord Bexley, in the Chair.

Movers and Seconders. Rev. Professor Lee; and Rev. Robert Philip Rev. Dr. Henderson; and Rev. John Morison - Rev. C. Bishop; and Rev. Mr. Forbes-Rev. H. Townley; and T. Pell Platt, Esq.-and Rev. Professor Lee; and Rev. John Morison.

Donations and Life Subscriptions, 472

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