die, and not live. 1st. I ask that, during the remaining years, months, weeks, days, or hours I may live, I may, by Thy grace assisting me, walk before Thee with a perfect heart. 2d. That I may never disgrace Thy holy name, by which I am called, and that I may order all my affairs with discretion. 3d. That I may provide things honest and of good report in the sight of all men. 4th. That I may have a portion to give to the widow, the fatherless, the stranger, the sick and afflicted; and, if not too much to ask, that I may still be permitted to aid in institutions laboring for the spread of the Gospel and advancing the kingdom of my dear Redeemer, who has done so much for me and mine. 5th. That I may have a measure of health while I live, and be taken home to the mansion prepared for me by my Lord and Savior when I have done the work Thou hast assigned me on earth. If consistent with Thy holy will, that I may not be left to be a burden to myself and others. Nevertheless, not my will, but Thine be done. I desire to ask with submission. One thing more I ask, and would plead earnestly for, and ask my gracious Redeemer to intercede for me, that Thy sensible presence may be with me all the way when passing through the Valley of the Shadow of Death. O, may I hear the voice of Him saying, "Let not your heart be troubled; ye believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come

again, and receive you to myself; that where I am, there you may be also." Grant, if consistent with Thy holy will, that I may have an easy transition; that the enemy may not have permission to assault me; and that, like my dear mother and still dearer husband, I may lean on my Master's bosom, and sweetly fall asleep in Jesus. I ask all these favors, not for any worthiness in me, but for the sake of Him whom Thou hearest always. Amen. Come, Lord Jesus! come quickly! And now, Lord, for my children and children's children, I ask that they may indeed be ALL taught of God, to the latest generation. It is a large boon, but Thou hast commanded, "Open thy mouth wide, and I will fill it." Nothing is too hard for Thee. Giving does not impoverish Thee, nor withholding make Thee rich. Grant that none of them may ever bring disgrace upon their profession. Spare my beloved daughters to train up their children in Thy fear. May they be help-meets to thy servants. And, O my gracious Father, look on my beloved son, the only son of his mother, and she a widow; the son for whom his father prayed,. and whom he lent unto the Lord all the days of his life. O grant him all needful grace. Open the eyes of his understanding to read the Scriptures; make him a workman in Thy cause that needeth not to be ashamed. May he indeed be a chosen vessel, whom the Lord will send to preach the Gospel! Lord, grant that, when he shall have a companion, she may be a King's daughter. Choose Thou for him, gra

cious God, one that will be a help-meet for him, who will train up her children to serve the God of their fathers. O, may the houses of my beloved children be Bethels to the Lord! May the morning and evening sacrifice continually ascend from their dwellings! May all my children, in every generation, seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and then they have the promise that all temporal blessings necessary in this life Thou wilt add! May the God before whom my fathers walked, the God before whom your dear beloved father walked, and before whom (oh how imperfectly) your mother has walked-the God which fed me all my life long unto this day-the Angel which redeemed me from all evil, bless you, and let His name, even the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, be named on you in all your generations; and may you grow into a multitude in the midst of the earth! Of you and of your seed may it be said, in every age, in answer to your father's prayers, and for the sake of his God, "These are they who bring the sacrifices of praise into the house of the Lord." This was his prayer and hope for you, and this is my prayer and hope for you: "Riches of grace in the covenant of Jehovah, more precious than the mines of Golconda or Peru." Amen and amen.

March 18th, 1825.

The birthday of my beloved son George, now the only son of his mother, and she a widow. Oh the

joy that this day twenty years was experienced by his beloved father and now desolate mother that a man-child was born into our family! His dear father, now in glory, prayed thus for him, after magnifying the Lord for His goodness, to his Maker in the trying hour: "Thou knowest that I have all along asked of my God that, if he gave us a son, that he might be sanctified from the womb, and be made a faithful, honored, and zealous minister of the everlasting Gospel. Lord, hear us in this thing." Then follow the texts: 1 Samuel, i., 27, 28. This I took March 14th; 1 Samuel, i., 23; Isaiah, lxv., 23, 24; Jeremiah, v., 5. All these promises he saw accomplished. When leaving his son at the Theological Seminary, oh how he sang praises to God, exultingly saying, "He worships the Lord there." Many of our Christian friends looked with amazement at the goodness of God toward our family, and gave glory to God in our behalf. "Now lettest Thou Thy servant depart in peace, for mine eyes have seen Thy salvation," was the language of both our hearts. Often, when meditating on the great happiness of our family (all our children being now taught of God), has my heart been ready to burst with gratitude to Him who had now answered all our prayers. Alas! little did I think that, in less than one year, this happy dwelling would be filled with lamentation and woe, and that, indeed, thy faithful servant would depart in peace. A very few months I could say I had not a wish ungratified.

"Like Jonah (well our stories suit),
I viewed my gourd well pleased;
Like him, I could not see the root
On which the worm had seized.

"But saw, at length, the hour draw nigh
(That hour I since have known),
When he, my earthly joy, must die,
And I be left alone.

"Now, Lord, I would to Thee apply,
On Thee alone depend;

Thou art, when creatures fail and die,
An ever-living friend!"

Many are the prayers, before Thy throne, offered by his dear grandmother and dear, dear father. O gracious God, answer them now; now let Thy blessing descend upon him. They, perhaps, are now looking down upon the poor afflicted widow weeping before Thee this day; her heart bleeding under Thy stroke, yet enabled to glorify Thee in the furnace, saying,

"Sharp was my pain, and deep my wound

A wound that still must bleed;

But daily help and strength I found,

Proportioned to my need."

O gracious God, I desire now to return from the world, to be shut up with Thee, to plead Thy promises in behalf of my beloved son, this day twenty years old. I go to Thy Word to search for promises for him; direct me to them, O my God.

Psalm lxxxi., 10: I am the Lord which brought thee out of the land of Egypt: open thy mouth wide, and I will fill it. Acts, ii., 17: "And it shall come to