And Lumley, nearer perhaps to the prize than either, yet still far off, went on conversing, with eloquent lips and sparkling eyes, while his cold heart was planning every word, dictating every glance, and laying out (for the most worldly are often the most visionary) the chart for a royal road to fortune. And Florence Lascelles, when the crowd had dispersed and she sought her chamber, forgot all three-and with that morbid romance often peculiar to those for whom Fate smiles the most, mused over the ideal image of the one she could love—" in maiden meditation not fancy free!" CHAPTER IV. "In mea vesanas habui dispendia vires "Then might my breast be read within, OVID. A thousand volumes would be written there." ERNEST MALTRAVERS was at the height of his reputation: the work which he had deemed the crisis that was to make or mar him was the most brilliantly successful of all he had yet committed to the public. Certainly, chance did as much for it as merit, as is usually the case with works that become instantaneously popular. We may hammer away at the casket with strong arm and good purpose, and all in vain, when some morning a careless stroke hits the right nail on the head, and we secure the treasure. It was at this time, when in the prime of youth-rich, courted, respected, run after-that Ernest Maltravers fell seriously ill. It was no active or visible disease, but a general irritability of the nerves, and a languid sinking of the whole frame. His labours began, perhaps, to tell against him. In earlier life he had been active as a hunter of the chamois, and the hardy exercise of his frame counteracted the effects of a restless and ardent mind. The change from an athletic to a sedentary habit of life-the wear and tear of the brain 48 THE HEART A HERMIT. -the absorbing passion for knowledge which day and night kept all his faculties in a stretch, made strange havoc in a constitution naturally strong. The poor author! how few persons understand, and forbear with, and pity him! He sells his health and youth to a rugged taskmaster. And, oh blind and selfish world, you expect him to be as free of manner, and as pleasant of cheer, and as equal of mood, as if he were passing the most agreeable and healthful existence that pleasure could afford to smooth the wrinkles of the mind, or medicine invent to regulate the nerves of the body! But there was, besides all this, another cause that operated against the successful man! His heart was too solitary. He lived without the sweet household tiesthe connexions and amities he formed excited for a moment, but possessed no charm to comfort or to sooth. Cleveland resided so much in the country, and was of so much calmer a temperament, and so much more advanced in age, that, with all the friendship that subsisted between them, there was none of that daily and familiar interchange of confidence which affectionate natures demand, as the very food of life. Of his brother (as the reader will conjecture from never having been formally presented to him) Ernest saw but little. Colonel Maltravers, one of the gayest and handsomest men of his time, married to a fine lady, lived principally at Paris, except when, for a few weeks in the shooting season, he filled his country house with companions who had nothing in common with Ernest: the brothers corresponded regularly every quarter, and saw each other once a year-this was all their intercourse. Ernest Maltravers stood in the world alone, with that cold but anxious spectre-Reputation. It was late at night. Before a table covered with the monuments of erudition and thought sat a young man, with a pale and worn countenance. The clock in the room told with a fretting distinctness every moment that lessened the journey to the grave. There was an anxious and expectant expression on the face of the student, and from time to time he glanced to the clock and muttered to himself. Was it a letter from some adored mistress, the soothing flattery from some mighty arbiter of arts and letters, that the young man eagerly awaited? No; the aspirer was forgotten in the valetudinarian. Ernest Maltravers was waiting the visit of A SICK STUDENT AND HIS PHYSICIAN. 49 his physician, whom at that late hour a sudden thought had induced him to summon from his rest. At length the well-known knock was heard, and in a few moments the physician entered. He was one well versed in the peculiar pathology of bookmen, and kindly as well as skilful. 66 'My dear Mr. Maltravers, what is this? How are we? Not seriously ill, I hope-no relapse-pulse low and irregular, I see, but no fever. You are nervous." "Doctor," said the student, "I did not send for you at this time of night from the idle fear or fretful caprico of an invalid; but when I saw you this morning, you dropped some hints which have haunted me ever since. Much that it befits the conscience and the soul to attend to without loss of time, depends upon my full knowledge of my real state. If I understand you rightly, I may have but a short time to live-is it so ?" "Indeed," said the doctor, turning away his face, you have exaggerated my meaning. I did not say that you were in what we technically call danger." “Am I, then, likely to be a long-lived man?" The doctor coughed. "That is uncertain, my dear young friend," said he, after a pause. "Be plain with me. The plans of life must be based upon such calculations as we can reasonably form of its probable duration. Do not fancy that I am weak enough or coward enough to shrink from any abyss which I have approached unconsciously; I desire, I abjure, nay, I command you to be explicit." There was an earnest and solemn dignity in his patient's voice and manner which deeply touched and impressed the good physician. "I will answer you frankly," said he; "you overwork the nerves and the brain; if you do not relax, you will subject yourself to confirmed disease and premature death. For several months-perhaps for years to come-you should wholly cease from literary labour. Is this a hard sentence? You are rich and youngenjoy yourself while you can." Maltravers appeared satisfied-changed the conversation-talked easily on other matters for a few minutes: nor was it till he had dismissed his physician that he broke forth with the thoughts that were burning in him. "Oh!" cried he aloud, as he rose and paced the room with rapid strides; "now, when I see before me VOL. II.-E 50 THOUGHTS ON EMULATION AND FAME. the broad and luminous path, am I to be condemned to halt and turn aside! A vast empire rises on my view, greater than that of Cæsars and conquerors-an empire durable and universal in the souls of men, that time itself cannot overthrow; and death marches with mc, side by side, and the skeleton hand waves me back to the nothingness of common men." He paused at the casement-he_threw it open, and leaned forth and gasped for air. Heaven was serene and still, as morning came coldly forth among the waning stars; and the haunts of men, in their thoroughfare of idleness and of pleasure, were desolate and void. Nothing, save nature, was awake. "And if, oh stars!" murmured Maltravers, from the depth of his excited heart; "if I had been insensible to your solemn beauty-if the heaven and the earth had been to me but as air and clay--if I were one of a dull and dim-eyed herd-I might live on, and drop into the grave from the ripeness of unprofitable years. It is because I yearn for the great objects of an immortal being that life shrinks and shrivels up like a scroll. Away; I will not listen to these human and material monitors, and consider life as a thing greater than the things that I would live for. My choice is made; glory is more persuasive than the grave." He turned impatiently from the casement-his eyes flashed-his chest heaved-he trod the chamber with a monarch's air. All the calculations of prudence, all the tame and methodical reasonings with which, from time to time, he had sought to sober down the impetuous man into the calm machine, faded away before the burst of awful and commanding passions that swept over his soul. Tell a man, in the full tide of his triumphs, that he bears death within him; and what crisis of thought can be more startling and more terrible! Maltravers had, as we have seen, cared little for fame till fame had been brought within his reach; then, with every step he took, new Alps had arisen. Each new conjecture brought to light a new truth, that demanded enforcement or defence. Rivalry and competition chafed his blood, and kept his faculties at their full speed. He had the generous racehorse spirit of emulation ever in action, ever in progress, cheered on by the sarcasms of foes even more than by the applause of friends, the desire of glory had become the habit of THE KNIFE CUTS THE SCABBARD. 51 existence. When we have commenced a career, what stop is there till the grave? Where is the definite barrier of that ambition, which, like the eastern bird, seems ever on the wing, and never rests upon the earth? Our names are not settled till our death; the ghosts of what we have done are made our haunting monitorsour scourging avengers-if ever we cease to do, or fall short of the younger past. Repose is oblivion; to pause is to unravel all the web that we have wovenuntil the tomb closes over us, and men, just when it is too late, strike the fair balance between ourselves and our rivals; and we are measured, not by the least, but by the greatest triumphs we have achieved. Oh, what a crushing sense of impotence comes over us when we feel our frame cannot support our mindwhen the hand can no longer execute what the soul, actively as ever, conceives and desires! The quick life tied to the dead form-the ideas fresh as immortality, gushing forth rich and golden, and the broken nerves, and the aching frame, and the weary eyes! The spirit athirst for liberty and heaven-and the damning, choking consciousness that we are walled up and prisoned in a dungeon that must be our burial-place! Falk not of freedom-there is no such thing as freedom to a man whose body is the jail, whose infirmities are the racks of his genius! Maltravers paused at last, and threw himself on his sofa, wearied and exhausted. Involuntarily, and as a half-unconscious means of escaping from his conflicting and profitless emotions, he turned to several letters which had for hours lain unopened on his table. Every one the seal of which he broke seemed to mock his state-every one seemed to attest the felicity of his fortunes. Some bespoke the admiring sympathy of the highest and wisest-one offered him a brilliant opening into public life—another (it was from Cleveland) was fraught with all the proud and rapturous approbation of a prophet whose auguries are at last fulfilled. At that letter Maltravers sighed deeply, and paused before he turned to the others. The last he opened was in an unknown hand, nor was any name affixed to it. Like all writers of some note, Maltravers was in the habit of receiving anonymous letters of praise, censure, warning, and exhortation-especially from young ladies at boarding-schools and old ladies in the country; but |