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and raiment which my heavenly Father knoweth I stand in need of before I ask him, Matt. vi. 8; and with this, humbling grace also, to be therewith content, i Tim. vi. 8. As for ecclesiastical titles, or any other carnal dignity, I will never pray for them, but hope to be satisfied with the title of a faithful labourer. Nor will I crave any other dignity than that which thy word allows, namely, that of being thy son by faith, and an heir of thy eternal kingdom.
And suffer me, O Lord, to remind thee of the earnest petitions which I once put up, with many tears, in a wood between Petworth and Horsham in Sussex, and to which thou gavest me an answer of peace. Thou knowest I was moved to put it up under the melancholy reflection of a certain man, who in persecution and oppression seemed strong in the faith, but in prosperity was fearfully fallen, and has appeared to fall ever since. Thou knowest I earnestly solicited the following blessings of thee, lest I should fall as he did. First, that thou wouldst bless me indeed with thy Spirit's internal testimony, thy supporting hand, and thy soul-comforting presence: Secondly, that thou wouldst make me abundantly useful in my ministry, and fruitful in my life; and bless me with diligence, knowledge, and zeal, to serve my generation while it is called to-day: Thirdly, that thou wouldst keep both my spiritual and temporal portion in thine own hands; but give me a strong faith to draw daily upon thee, as my soul, body,
or family, might stand in need : Fourthly, that thou wouldst defray my expenses and the expenses of my family, through this life, so as to shield a liberal mind and a tender conscience, and give me daily an open heart, a bountiful noble, generous spirit, as well becomes the gospel, and the preacher of it: and that I might not muzzle thy truth in the pulpit to shield covetousness, nor pass the sentence of damnation on myself when I preached against it; lest, while teaching others not to covet, I myself should commit sacrilege, Rom. ii. 22 : Fifthly and lastly, that thou wouldst enable me, at my dying hour, to commit my soul, my wife, and family, into thy hands, in the fullest assurance of spiritual faith. To all which thou gavest me an answer of peace. So, O Lord, let it stand ratified in the heavens, and in thy own appointed time make it good on earth.
And whatever doctrines thou shalt think meet to reveal in answer to prayer, whether to preach or to write, whether pleasing to sinners or displeasing, O Lord, give me grace to preach them, or write them, without being lifted up with the applause of true brethren, or awed by the carnal fear of false ones. If all frown on me, do thou smile; let who will oppose, do thou lead me on; whoever condemns or accuses me, do thou justify; and, if the whole world curse me, do thou bless; and under thy blessed wings I shall sing sweetly, and be safe enough from the fear of evil. If thou
give peace, who then can create trouble, whether it be against a nation, or a man only? O Lord, let the hypocrite never reign, lest the souls of the righteous be ensnared. Amen and Amen.
Mercy and truth be with thee,” 2 Sam. xv. 20. “ And the things that thou hast heard of me among many witnesses, the same commit thou to faithful men, who shall be able to teach others,” 2 Tim. ii. 2.
Thirteenthly, That most blessed book of God, the Holy Bible, together with an excellent Treatise on the Sovereignty of God, written by that eminent servant of Christ Elisha Cole; the learned Boston's View of the Covenant of Grace; and that golden phænix in its cage, called The Pilgrim's Progress, written by the reverend John Bunyan, doctor of divinity, and master of allegorical arts; I do will and desire to leave the above-mentioned invaluable books, unsullied, uncorrupted, unaltered, and void of all notes, comments, annotations, or paraphrases whatsoever, to every heir of promise in the Christian world, as a rich spiritual treasure by divine donation, to have, to hold, and to enjoy till death; and then to descend as an hereditary portion to their heirs and successors, or whosoever shall appear in this
world to be of the covenant line, if they can prove their genealogy by the soundness of their principles, the purity of their spirit, and the uprightness of their practice; to be enjoyed by them till time is no more. And may the Lord, who teacheth man to profit, enable them in every age to see eye to eye, until they are enabled with all saints to know what is that height, depth, length, and breadth, of the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord; which God of his infinite mercy grant to his own honour, their present safety, and eternal comfort. Amen and Amen.
“That ye may suck and be satisfied with the
breasts of her consolations: that ye may milk out and be delighted with the abundance of
her glory,” Isaiah lxvi. 11. " I have fed you with milk, and not with meat;
for hitherto ye were not able to bear it, neither yet now are ye able,” i Cor. iii. 2.
The Holy Bible, Luther's Commentary on the Galatians, Mr. Bunyan's Discourse on the Jerusalem Sinner saved, together with his Come and welcome to Jesus Christ, with Mr. Romaine's Life and Walk of Faith, and part of Mr. Marshall's Gospel Mystery of Sanctification, I do will and desire to leave, as a choice breast of consolation, to all the infant progeny of Zion, our most tender, affectionate, and ever-revered Mother, of everblessed and everlasting memory; to have and to
hold till they are established in faith, and then to descend to their infant race from age to age, as a rich supply, under God, of spiritual pocket-money; to be given to them quite sterling, as they are at present, without any adulteration, deduction, or diminution whatsoever. And may the Lord bless the legacy to all his little ones, who are too weak to walk by faith, too scrupulous to trust a hiding God, and too much attached to self-confidence to launch forth upon sovereign mercy, through Christ, revealed in an unconditional promise. May the Lord of all lords indulge them with the sensible breasts of comfort, ‘and not wean them until they are able to live absent from the body, and present with the Lord! Amen and Amen.
“ This is the portion of a wicked man from God,
and the heritage appointed unto him by God,” Job xx. 29.
Fourteenthly, The following books, entitled Mr. Baxter's Call to the Unconverted, Mr. Joseph Alleine's Alarm, Thomas a Kempis, the whole works of the free-will Mr. Goodwin, together with all the thunderbolts of popery, I do leave and bequeath to the numerous bastard race of gospel mockers, the unconverted to whom they are dedicated, the whole family of that insolent strumpet Hagar, to be distributed among them within two hours after my death, or as many months before as the Pope of Rome shall think proper. This I